Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The Big Kid


As I approach my Thirty-3rd birthday, I look at the people who I hang around and those I am attracted to and those who are attracted to me as well. I have an extremely youth-ful spirit which works for me and I use it well. But sometimes I don't feel grown. I mean I do what I am supposed to be doing at Thirty-2 but, I feel sometimes left behind. I have not done all my friends have. I think being an only child helped but hurt me at the same time. So, as a single black man, who now lives in DC, who has started his own company, I feel incomplete as a man. I don't want to keep up with the Jones's but I do be in comparison with them. This is not a I am getting older and so I am depressed blog but an awakening that I feel like I don't belong. I think I am on a search to belong somewhere to someone or ones. Welcome to Thirty-3, I guess.

2 comments:

THEGAYTEKEEPER said...

You'll get there TRUST that!

Mrs. Wanted said...

I am only 27 and I will be 28 in 47 days and I have been feeling the same way lately. Most of my peers are married with kids and I have neither. Makes me feel like ive been deprived of things in life. Dont get me wrong my life is good right now for the first time in my life I am living my life. But like you said being an only child I think has help me understand what it means to stand alone but also made me strong minded and independent to the point that im too independent