Wednesday, February 10, 2010
The Big Kid
As I approach my Thirty-3rd birthday, I look at the people who I hang around and those I am attracted to and those who are attracted to me as well. I have an extremely youth-ful spirit which works for me and I use it well. But sometimes I don't feel grown. I mean I do what I am supposed to be doing at Thirty-2 but, I feel sometimes left behind. I have not done all my friends have. I think being an only child helped but hurt me at the same time. So, as a single black man, who now lives in DC, who has started his own company, I feel incomplete as a man. I don't want to keep up with the Jones's but I do be in comparison with them. This is not a I am getting older and so I am depressed blog but an awakening that I feel like I don't belong. I think I am on a search to belong somewhere to someone or ones. Welcome to Thirty-3, I guess.